New Year

I have always thought that resolutions were a crock. Promises that people make and always break. So in my mind why even make them? However, I am going to break my own rule I guess. I need to make a change in my life. Everyday I look at the mirror and hate what I see. I hate my body especially after having my son. Everyone says you look great after having a baby. And I want to just scoff at them. I see myself in the mirror everyday. I see my body naked and see my stomach that jiggles and will not flatten no matter what work out I do. What I see disgust me and makes me feel horrible. Yeah maybe I have a small case of body dismorphic disorder but what woman doesn't? I have done everything diets, workouts even looking at plastic surgery procedures and unfortunately I think I just lack the focus and drive needed to lose those last 10-15 pounds. I am going to try though.

Today I looked at Weight Watchers because eating is a major factor. I love food so much lol !!!! The idea of giving up Spanish rice and pernil kills me but with all good comes sacrifice. I signed up for a meeting location near my job so I can go during my breaks or after work. I tried signing up for a monthly pass before I change my mind that way I'll go because I hate wasting money! However the stupid website isn't working. GRRR!!!! Major letdown. I guess I will sign up for pass once I go to a meeting. I will try to update this once a week. Telling any readers my frustrations, triumphs and goals. Wish me luck.

This Week's Weight: 134lbs
Minimum Goal: 125lbs (-9lbs)
Maximum Goal: 118lbs (-16lbs)

I don't know if I will lose weight this week since I am just getting started and need to start the WW program but if I get everything done this weekend I'm hoping for a 2lb weight lose for the week.